Booo…today’s work was not fun at all…We were slammed for about 4 hours with initially only 4 people working, which is NOT enough to run a restaurant jam packed with people..Eventually the owner and his son got there to help and things turned out okay…but the owner tends to be rude and quite insulting to women at times..so he makes me nervous. IN fact many men make me nervous…and in some cases they even make me feel worthless and insignificant. I think my dad and his little influence on my life is probably the cause..which eventually led me to turn to ED symptoms…There were many factors, but guys in general..I just haven’t had that much luck with sweet guys I guess…Even my current bf can be a bit of an ass…and believes it is fun to piss me off by calling me fat, stupid, etc. Yea…..I’m struggling with him right now…our relationship has not been great…due to our busy work schedules…I’m at a loss for what to do…He doesn’t seem to want to hang out much due to work…and I’m just tired of it…I need a bf who will support me and be by my side…who calls with loving messages, instead of insults and complaints 😦 Yes, I love him..but right now it’s a bit hard…
My mom thinks we should break up..and I should continue looking for a new guy in college…which I’m seriously considering…Though ending a 3 year relationship will be difficult to say the least…He’s been my best friend through thick and thin…I’m not sure I will be able to let him go…but since part of him caused my Ed…maybe it would be for the best…who knows. I’m still thinking…If anyone has an insight on this please share..I’m only 19…it’s hard to know if someone, the perfect guy could still be out there…I don’t know if I should settle…
On another note..food has been not so good…I tried the Kashi Mayan harvest meal..honestly I must not be an Indian fan because that meal just was not tasty to me…I think Ixp’m more of a simple fruit, yogurt, cereal, veggie person myself…SO even digesting processed frozen meals is kinda difficult at times…I know I should be expanding my diet a bit…especially with real, wholesome foods…Not sweets. Lately I’ve been drinking more water instead of diet pepsi/coke and I feel like my cravings and hunger has decreased a lotttt…I hate that feeling about 10 minutes after you drink a diet beverage..and your stomach is bloated, yet you feel a need to eat or get a weird shaky feeling. Does anyone else experience this? I think it’s the aspartame or whatnot…but it’s quite bothersome…
I think that’s enough rant for today…Peace friends 😀 Have a great night!
hey thanks for the sweetest comment 🙂 i love your blog! so gorgeous!
when ever i drink diet soda my stomach hurts too, yes i think its the aspartame. and i am not hungry anymore, i guess that is why i drank 6 cans of d coke a day last summer yikes! now i drink tooo water and it also makes me less hungry.
well..have a great day lovie
xo
maya